Because I think you're the tops

Leave it to me and Kristen to show up at an african american discrimination support group bbq..... followed shortly by the crashing of urban cowboy for free wings, then an epic neon party with some very interesting(?) people and a rousing pong game... then there was the underground dance party.... we don't need to get into that... definitely not enough time to cover those events lol

I also woke up to 12 people in my apartment filming a zombie movie and sprinted out of my door in the wee hours of the night smuggling a rabbit.

All in all, I'd say that was a pretty fantastic weekend. Now yo necesito estudiar para mi clase de orgo porque estoy how you say.. screwed?

Everything happens for a reason.

Sorry I'm going to be THAT person.

I'm making a list. Too many things to say, not enough adderall to fix it.

1) In heaven from the elephant dance party upstairs
2) Played with a human brain on monday... because me and the neurology prof are biffles
3) Live animals I studied this week: 8 week old puppies (I know I already win right there), Millipedes, Tarantulas, Emperor Scorpions, Hundreds of bugs (so so so many), Dwarf hamsters, craw fish, African Xenopus frog. No words can explain how much fun I've had.
4) I just keep having awesome days. Just in general. Yay pursuing dreams!
5) Bought 2 more pillows today. You can never ever have too many pillows.
6) Can we talk about how many excellent TV shows are premiering this week? I'll list my favorites: Glee, Modern Family, Greys, Big bang theory, Bones, Dexter.... I'm going to explode
7) TWO packages from home?! Umm ok!
8) Met way too many cool people this week. Gts
9) Offered a reallly cool position that would be huge. I wont give details. Why you ask? Because it will jinx me and that would take all the mystery away. I mean really now. This blog reveals far too much already.

Ok going to bed now. Jam session upstairs finally stopped. It's a sign.

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Seriously guys. This isn't possible. It's like they hijacked my brain and picked out every perfect song I have ever known. The mix doesn't even work well together. And yet.... *sigh* Mind. Blown.

Music is my aeroplane

The elephants are up to it again... being obnoxious and whatnot.

It's fine though. Which ever elephant is DJ for the night upstairs is my soulmate. They have literally played every song I have ever loved in my life over the past two hours. And it's blasting. And I love it. True love right there.

Once upon a time, I fell in love with a musically gifted obnoxious elephant. And I lived happily ever after....

I know I kind of don't have a choice in this moving on thing, but if I'm being really honest....

This sucks and I hate it.

Ok I feel better. Just had to put that out there.

Letting Go

First, I feel like I should warn anyone out there reading this that I am pulling my second all nighter in a row.... So there is a gigantic chance that I'm going to slip in and out of coherency. Which leads me to panic a little... Considering I have a hefty test in 5 hours. So yeah. Might want a functioning brain for that... eh...

Anyhoo, just thought I'd blog for a second as a mental break. My big news is that I had a weird moment of clarity last night around 3am. I was going back and forth studying for organic chemistry and ecology when out of nowhere it hit me. I'm that person who ends up being the doormat to 90% of the people I come in to contact with. Sometimes it's completely innocent unintentional thing too. I'm the type of person who's quick to forgive, likes to see the best in people and I tend to analyze and reason so much that I somehow find a way to reach my own personal homeostasis in every situation, no matter how ridiculous.

This probably seems like my blog is taking a turn for dark, emo, bitterfest; population me. Right? Well no worries. I'm on the other side of the spectrum.

It's not that I'm overly upset about that realization or I plan on going on some crazy girl power trip. I just feel like it's an opportunity for me to reevaluate how I approach situations and maybe invest in a little wake up call for next time. I feel like I need to stop taking blows and settling when I deserve to be treated just as well as anyone else. It's time for me to stand up for myself a bit more and learn to move on from bad situations. The truth is no matter how I handle my life, I can't control others' actions. If I've done what I can and it's starting to look like I'm beating a very very dead horse, it's OK to move on with life and take care of me, first and foremost. So that's the plan. No more doormat Caity. I'm not going to put myself in positions that are clearly a slippery slope to me being left high and dry wondering how I could've done more.

Sometimes you just need to come to terms with the fact that shit happens. Life's too short. I'm lucky, I have a great family, awesome friends, and hopefully, a bright future. So why waste my time crying over spilt milk? Time to clean up and move on with life.

What better way to start off than spend the weekend with two of the greatest friends I've ever had.

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.... Cue the mad creepy carnie music? Reaaaallly Elephant friends? At least have some taste in music. Weak sauce.